today i watched a dream unfold before my very eyes. after years of imagining writing wishing and conjuring images in my mind, i am finally in Santorini. i walk the narrow streets of Oia (Ia) and my smile is a mile wide. each painted door comes alive like a character out of a storybook. the aegean sea shimmers like a jewel in the sun. i am surrounded by so much breathtaking beauty i find myself rooted to one spot. i have a precious room in a traditional cave house and when i open my doors, i can look out into the sea from my bed. i don't find the need to go out and explore. i am exactly where i want to be.
after a restful nap, a lovely and windy sunset and a quiet dinner in a taverna, i'm back in my room watching the orange moon make its way into the night as it rises over santorini. it is springtime and everything is peaceful. everything is beautiful. i've been so used to feeling a sense of longing all my life and now that it's gone, i find myself looking around in awe and at the same time, making sure it's not just hiding in some corner. but even with my eyes closed my heart tells me that i have freed myself. gratitude overwhelms me, knowing what it took to get here.
the biggest adventure you can ever take is live the life of your dreams and i'm so greatly blessed to be doing exactly that. i don't know how things will unfold, that's the beauty of it. what i do know is it's going to be amazing. my heart is opening up to all the beautiful possibilities and looking forward to seeing the next dream unfold. but in the meantime i am here, steeped in beauty, taking it one breath at a time.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
my big fat greek adventure
a few days ago when i asked my friend konstantinos if i can listen to some greek music, i had no idea what i was in for. so on a beautiful saturday morning, we drove up to mt. parnassos with greek folk songs blasting on the radio and konstantinos singing (and dancing!) - all the way. the sun shone down on the countryside as i listened to stories & translated lyrics, as i learned more about life behind these songs, as i laughed till my insides hurt. after a very healthy dose of live greek entertainment, we arrived at the elatos mountain resort where my friend was holding a yoga retreat later this month and where i was taken on an unexpected hike through the forest. we walked on rough trails, past bubbling streams, through a bright green world waking up to spring. it was drizzling and it made everything look so pretty. after much huffing and puffing in my mud-covered espadrilles, we reached a meadow high up on the plain - and the place was serenely beautiful. no sound from below could be heard, as if no other world save for that mountain existed. our guide was an old man who grew up in the area herding sheep as a young boy. he pointed to the small caves where they would take shelter from the rain and to all the places where they would run and play. hiking back down to the resort my heart was fuller, my smile a mile wide.

we visited delphi late in the afternoon and consulted with the oracle. it's amazing to see all these ruins. it puts me in such awe and wonder how highly advanced these ancient civilizations were, and more importantly the high regard they had for art and beauty. to live in those times! we then drove down to Galaxidi, a small quaint village by the sea where we had the most amazing meal - fresh fish grilled perfectly, sweet fresh mussels in wine & lemon, some horta some salad, and cheese! lots and lots of cheese. ah nostimos! since i arrived in athens, after meals especially with konstantinos around, i would always feel like an indian cow - spoiled, fat and happy. patting my round belly and complaining half-heartedly, i would then drift off to my happy place imagining once again the food which i had just eaten and replaying all the flavors in my mouth.

then yesterday was a nice lazy sunday. after a fun laughter yoga in the park and a souvlaki lunch, we walked around the city which was quiet & did what the Greeks do - enjoy their coffee in one of the many cafes in the old plaka. since i don't do coffee i've slowly adopted the habit of drinking tsiporou - a bitter liquor made from grapes which to me tastes a bit like vodka. it's their version of the grappa except that instead of drinking it after, they also drink it before & during meals. so there i was sitting with new friends drinking my tsiporou, surrounded by a language i didn't understand but totally comfortable with, feeling so content and grateful. oprah said - the biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams. and yesterday i realized what a wonderful adventure i am having. indeed, everything starts with a dream.
we visited delphi late in the afternoon and consulted with the oracle. it's amazing to see all these ruins. it puts me in such awe and wonder how highly advanced these ancient civilizations were, and more importantly the high regard they had for art and beauty. to live in those times! we then drove down to Galaxidi, a small quaint village by the sea where we had the most amazing meal - fresh fish grilled perfectly, sweet fresh mussels in wine & lemon, some horta some salad, and cheese! lots and lots of cheese. ah nostimos! since i arrived in athens, after meals especially with konstantinos around, i would always feel like an indian cow - spoiled, fat and happy. patting my round belly and complaining half-heartedly, i would then drift off to my happy place imagining once again the food which i had just eaten and replaying all the flavors in my mouth.
then yesterday was a nice lazy sunday. after a fun laughter yoga in the park and a souvlaki lunch, we walked around the city which was quiet & did what the Greeks do - enjoy their coffee in one of the many cafes in the old plaka. since i don't do coffee i've slowly adopted the habit of drinking tsiporou - a bitter liquor made from grapes which to me tastes a bit like vodka. it's their version of the grappa except that instead of drinking it after, they also drink it before & during meals. so there i was sitting with new friends drinking my tsiporou, surrounded by a language i didn't understand but totally comfortable with, feeling so content and grateful. oprah said - the biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams. and yesterday i realized what a wonderful adventure i am having. indeed, everything starts with a dream.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
a brighter wish
there are certain things in my life that i wish could stay the same. like the way i would stand behind my husband as he'd open the door to our room in the evenings. these rare occasions when we would come home together... random things that i wish could remain.
but there are more things that i wish were different. i wish occasions like these weren't rare but instead a sweet everyday occurrence that fills the wide spaces in between. i wish for other things too and it makes me realize how much is missing.
most people think in order to get over someone, you have to stop loving that person. i think people who do this are setting themselves up to fail. i'm slowly understanding what it means to love someone so completely and learning that it is time to move on. i'm beginning to understand how loving someone doesn't mean holding on to that person, but surpisingly, setting your self free. because how can there be loss when love is truly present?
i recognize that the things i want in my life to stay the same are my ways of resisting the transformation which is taking place. it's fear making its usual appearance which i notice is getting bleaker by the day. because brighter is the wish for a bigger and fuller life - to complete the experience i've set out for. i know life isn't easy & "perfect" but that doesn't stop me from making the best out of it.
the heart wants what it wants, and mine wants what finally exists after years of longing - living my truth and loving it completely.
but there are more things that i wish were different. i wish occasions like these weren't rare but instead a sweet everyday occurrence that fills the wide spaces in between. i wish for other things too and it makes me realize how much is missing.
most people think in order to get over someone, you have to stop loving that person. i think people who do this are setting themselves up to fail. i'm slowly understanding what it means to love someone so completely and learning that it is time to move on. i'm beginning to understand how loving someone doesn't mean holding on to that person, but surpisingly, setting your self free. because how can there be loss when love is truly present?
i recognize that the things i want in my life to stay the same are my ways of resisting the transformation which is taking place. it's fear making its usual appearance which i notice is getting bleaker by the day. because brighter is the wish for a bigger and fuller life - to complete the experience i've set out for. i know life isn't easy & "perfect" but that doesn't stop me from making the best out of it.
the heart wants what it wants, and mine wants what finally exists after years of longing - living my truth and loving it completely.
Friday, April 02, 2010
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